My Why in Life - Sarah Tut

Once upon a time my people were illiterate.

My ancestors never wrote their names.

They had no clue how old they were, which year they were born. 

They counted years by season, rainy and hot!

Education did not exist in my ancestor’s time!

Both of my parents never went to school!

I came from a backwards society,

Girls were not allowed to be educated, 

They married

Women were to only have babies and look after men

Their sole purpose to look after family and be property to men!

I couldn’t read or write 13 years ago,

I couldn’t take my child to a doctor’s appointment 12 years ago,

I did not know how big the world is!

I was never told that I can have dreams,

I was never told that I can have a vision

I was never told that I can do great things with my life. 

I was never told that I could have a purpose.

I was never told that I could be more!

But god does not make junk

All of a sudden God reached down to the bottom 

and brought me here to Canada, 

Now I am a person with a new normal!

I want to create my own kind,

My own reality

My own purpose in life, 

My Why, 

My vision, 

My dreams

Set goals 

I have that power. 

I have the passion, commitment, and discipline to get there

I believe God will give me the strength and help me reach my Why

It is hard to be a parent and a student,

It is not fun to be a single mother of four with no support from family 

It is hard to live in a country with no relatives  

It is hard to come to classes when your child is sick, 

It is hard to do assignments when you are juggling between children’s activities and work  

It hard to study when you go to a part time job right after school

It is very difficult to be so alone. 

But My Why in Life has to be bigger that all my excuses. 

Every time I am dealing with unexpected situations, I am reminded about my Why

Every time I feel lost in life and want to quit, my Why motivates me to carry on

No matter what the challenge,  my Why carries me forward 

My life long mission is to make a difference in the world, to help other women feel they have a right to a Why

To support and encourage others 

To listen to those who are hurting 

And to be a blessing to my loved ones and those who care about me.

I want to be used for great things 

And most of all I want to be a solid example to my children! 

I invite my angels to come alongside me, 

step by step in my journey to find my Why.

I ask the universe to guide me in the right directions so I can help others find their Why too.

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Sarah Nyanhial Tut (21st century) South Sudan

Source: Facebook: Grosvenor Park United Church